chapter six

Chapter 11


PWB

He expected me to consent. I saw it in his eyes. He wanted me. He wanted me to go upstairs to his apartment, and she loved him.
God, what resulted? It started from a simple massage, and what end? I could stop him, and I felt after I saw what he was doing. But I could not, did not want to. I craved his touch. Every cell of my body. Champagne only helped me to relax.
It was wrong, wrong, and such delightful. I wanted to touch me. Everywhere.
I can not believe that this has changed. Never let any man for such actions. It was wrong.
What would happen if we did not stop the driver? I'd give him, like a cheap dz *** a. Zdołałabym not resist. I do not want.
When the relationship between us that have changed? But at the beginning I hated him. Very. I was afraid of his behavior, how they refer to me. After all, it is unpleasant, difficult in the refinement man. Even you can not like him. Not to mention the other feelings.
What I do actually feel to it? Desire, that I was sure. But apart? I did not know.

With thoughts of his grunt escaped me. Still staring at me. Skipping his eyes, looked at the view from the window. Even I did not notice when it began to rain.
I looked at each other. Dress resolved, breasts almost in sight. Shoes lying somewhere on the floor. Disheveled hair fell on my face.
I felt tears creeping into your eyes. What I led? Father would not be proud of me.
The thought of him, tears flew one after the other. I grabbed my shoes and wore on his feet.
Edward frowned and grabbed my hand. I freed him.
- Bella - he whispered.
- Edward, I can not, I just can not! - Shouted with tears and opened the door.
I ran out into the rain, now intensified. After a while, I was completely soaked.
Edward came behind me and grabbed my hand.
- Let me Edward - struggled up. - I can not do, you know? Not that I was brought up. You will not be your next cheap whore, you'll have to sing a finger.
Edward's eyes darkened. He caught me in an iron grip.
- You really think so? Do you really think that I could treat you so?
- I do not know Edward, I do not know anything. Please leave me alone.
- I will not leave you. I know you want me, so I love you. Do not deny that.
I've hung my head and tried to get out of his grasp. I did not see anything, the rain flooded my eyes. Edward suddenly threw me to the car and pressed his lips to the anger of my mouth. He grabbed his wrists and put his head. I groaned loudly, while trying to escape. Freed one arm and did the first thing that came to my mind. Swung and hit him full force in the face.
Edward looked at me surprised. He pressed his hand to the red cheek. Without waiting for his reaction, I grabbed the ends of the dresses in her hands and began to run.
- To the ***! - I heard Edward. - Bella!
He did not even watched.

The rain turned into a downpour. I knew where he was heading. But first I had to call.
I stood under the roof restaurant and pulled out of the bag phone. For the past week I learned to handle it. I quickly picked required number. Answered on the second ring.
- Bella?
- Jasper? I come to you? Please - I begged.
- What happened? Something with Edward?
- Edward nothing happened. I'll tell you how to come. May I?
- Of course. He did not even ask. My house is always open to you ..
- Thank you. Just do not have the money. You'll be waiting at home and pay for the course?
- Bello come after you, where are you?
- Close to the apartment. Before the Italian restaurant.
- Wait for me there.
I hung up and crouched against the wall. Hid his face in his hands. Tears dropped from my eyes, mixed with rain. People walking on the pavement looked at me. One old lady asked if I'm feeling good. I nodded my head. I was not able to speak.
Arms hugged her knees and rocked forward and backward. Hair hid my view, the rain ran down the ends. I did not care.
I suddenly felt strong hands on his shoulders. I looked up. Jasper. I got up and threw him crying in his arms. He rocked me, standing in the rain and soaked. I did not care, I just wanted to give me a hug.
He stroked my hair, whispering soothing words. It lasted maybe ten minutes. In the end, he grabbed my hand and put him in a taxi. He got behind me and took me arm.
- Shh, do not cry now. Baby everything will be fine - whisper. - We will sit at home, I'll make you some tea and tell me everything. Tanya is with me, very worried about you. I no longer cry.
- Thank you, Jasper. You're like my brother he never had.
I felt like smiling at my head.
- It's little sister, older brother find advice on everything. Do not worry.
I smiled. He's always been able to make it. Dear Jasper ..

Linger on the landscape outside the window, when suddenly I saw him again. A man in a trench coat, which he hid in a side street. He looked straight at me. I shook my head. It seems to me - I said to myself. I saw it twice, it still does not mean anything.

We arrived at last to his apartment and had forgotten about it. I was tired from crying. So he caught me in his arms and carried her to the elevator.
At home waiting for us Tanya. She looked at me worried eyes. As soon as I entered, she hugged me tight, not looking at the whole it get wet. Even more she falls apart.
- Oh dear. You are all wet. Jasper bring her some his shirt and shorts. Will chill. I'll make you some tea with honey.
-Thank You, Tanya and I'm sorry for the trouble - I whispered.
The girl waved her hand and took me into the kitchen.
- Do not talk nonsense. No problem. Jasper loves you, and I know you at least briefly, I really liked. You have and drink - handed me the cup.
I accepted it gratefully. I sat on the chair and drank slowly. Jasper came back with clothes.
I went to the bathroom to change. I looked in the mirror. Looked horribly. Smudged makeup, tousled hair. And lips ... swollen from kissing. I sat on the tub and started crying again.
I heard a knock at the door.
- Bella, can I come in?
- Tanya is probably not the best idea.
- Please, I just want to talk to you.
I got up and opened the door. The girl on my back gave me a hug. If possible, I started crying even more.
- Edward? - Asked only.
I nodded, saying nothing. Tanya sighed, then took some liquid and began to wipe off makeup with me. She took me a clip of hair, then combed and tied them. She pulled me and sat down on the edge of the tub.
- Do you love him? - Asked directly.
I looked at her in surprise.
- How can I love him like I know him less than a month? Tanya, I ... I do not know - I finished.
- I noticed it today. These your eyes on each other. Between you and something is born and you can not deny it. What happened today?
I looked at her, biting her lip. I did not know how to say it. What does she think of me?
- When we returned limousine terribly hurt my feet. Edward offered that will make me a massage. And ... a massage is not over. If the driver is not that he spoke, would have loved to be there, in the car - I said, and hid his face in his hands.
Tanya sighed. I looked at her. She smiled.
- Bello and what's wrong with that? - Asked finally.
- Everything. This is not me, you know? I never acted this is not. Not that I was brought up. If my father lived, wstydziłabym to look him in the eye.
- Oh, girl! This is what you are real you! This is your desire, your desire. Want to Edward, you want to touch you. There is nothing wrong with that. You do not have to be ashamed of. It is beautiful. Many a woman wanted to feel something.
- But I do not know what to feel! - Shouted. - When Edward is close, it overwhelms me everything about it. His smell, his voice, his appearance. I'm afraid that you do not understand? I've never felt. I hated him yet!
Tanya laughed out loud.
- You do not know this saying from hatred to love one step? Bello love him. It does not matter whether the past year, a month or two days. That does not count.
- Even so, he does not love me. Catherine loves and will always love her.
- Catherine is just memories. She has been dead for many years. Edward loves her memory. You're alive, you're close to him. You have to realize he is just. Edward as anyone deserve happiness. And I believe that you can give them to him. Now stop to scribble. Remember - no guy is worth your premature wrinkles.
I smiled at her. I did not know that a simple conversation and thrown out of each other everything, make you feel lighter heart. I got up and hugged her tightly. I think I found a true friend.
- Thank you for this interview. I do not even know how I needed. I am very glad that I met you.
- I, too, am happy. Now, though, because Jasper's probably spins any suspicions, why so long we sit here.
We left and went to the kitchen. The man sat and drank coffee. He watched me intently as he saw me smile, relieved. He sat with them a while and saying that I'm tired, I went into the living room.
I lay down on the bed and immersed in thought.

Edward. The mere mention of his name causes tingling. I felt about him? Is it really was love? Or just an attraction. And if Edward felt the same? Do you want me to be close to him? He wanted to hear my voice, as I do it? Smell? Hear the laughter?
This is so hard. I've never been in love. Every man is always something missing. Everyone in the neighborhood told me that as a maid, I have too high expectations. Nothing, however, could not help it that I wanted someone special. With whom I felt safe, with whom I can talk on a variety of topics, with whom I will be able to laugh. Someone who will not treat me as inferior, which in my day was the norm. The woman was in order to deal with the house, children and husband to be on call.
I was too independent to allow ourselves to be regarded as such.
And now I met Edward. It is so different from the men they knew. Confident, arrogant, successful. On the other hand, having a sense of humor, with a soft heart. It is the kindness that you are trying to hide. And a great loneliness.
I felt tears gathering again. I shook my head. I can not rozklejać. In less than a month here, I cried more times than my whole life.
End of a badgering. With this decision, put together comfortably on the bed and fell asleep.

I spent a week in Jasper, during which Edward have been regularly struck several times daily. Jasper took some time off, I was not alone. Each time picking up the handset, told him to give me peace of mind at the moment. Still ringing.
I spent time reading, watching TV and talking with Tanya, who came every evening. Very zbliżyłyśmy to himself. She managed to persuade me to go to the cinema. She dressed me really short in short denim shorts and a black top. Men viewed for us, which really enjoyed it. I spent a very nice time.

Friday came, that I spend alone. Jasper had to leave for the day, and Tanya had her fashion show, which I did not want to leave. She was twenty, and I did not know what to do. I went into the shower.
After leaving dressed in shorts Jasper, where it was most convenient to me, even though they were a little too big. I applied a sleeveless blouse. Wet your hair down my shoulders. I just sit on the couch when I heard the doorbell. I frowned. This may Tanya came to try to persuade me.
- Who's there? - I asked.
- Edward - I heard the quiet reply.
A violent wave of feelings overpowered me. I closed my eyes. I was not ready to see him.
- Edward go away, please. Do not want to see you.
- I'm not leaving here until we talk. Open the door.
- No, go away, I will not open you. Understand, I'm not ready yet.
- Well, if you say so.
I thought that he was going to leave, when suddenly I heard a scratching lock. He was the key! I started to run to the bathroom, to close in front of him, but I ran away. Strong hands grabbed me and przycisnęły to the wall. Violently grabbed air and looked up. Edward looked up at me, his eyes darkened.
- Now you will not escape me - he rasped.
I looked at him and realized that he did not even want to run.

And how? :) I know that in this chapter are the advantages of dialogue over descriptions. In the next as it will be much descriptions ^^ So, finally, we will see