chapter 3

Chapter 3


PWE

Bella looked at me shocked. I do not blame her, I would be. I hope that more details would not want to know, because I do not know if I'm able to tell her.
- But ... I do not understand - Bella stuttered. - Please tell me all about it.
I sighed. I can not be avoided. I began to speak softly.
- Everything happened seven years ago, when I was a carefree twenties walking to college. With Catherine attended for two years. I met her at a concert, even when I was in high school. You could say that it was love at first sight. - Bella smiled at me warmly. - We could not break away from each other, we walked everywhere together. My parents did not approve of her, because she was poorer than us. It was not poor, but in comparison with us fell down miserably. Her father was chief of police, and her mother, well ... do well liked to drink. It also did not like my parents. Often quarreled with them, not coming back for the night. We slept in hotels, sometimes because Cathy had enough of his mother. It was not easy for us. Then I finished school and during the summer there was an accident. My parents died. Catherine was with me all the time. Finally, when the time came, of course, they both went to NYU * This may sound cruel, but no one we have not stood in the way, but I really missed her parents. I took over the family fortune and the second year we moved together. We were very happy. Practically treated you like a marriage. I planned to propose to her. I was not even going to buy a ring, but I could not ...
After the end of the first semester of my friend arranged a party. Come unless the entire dorm. There were plenty of people, alcohol poured down in torrents. Just the usual, student event. Came to her of course we do. Then I think I drank too much, to the friend offered me a joint and popped my head a little. Cathy is heavily pissed. She went to the dance floor and started dancing with other guys, I was jealous. And the men clung to her because she was a beautiful girl. Long black hair, green eyes and that smile ... When she smiled, I could do for her. She was aware of her beauty, but it has never been utilized. Up until that moment.
It worked. Even more drunk and accidentally dragged the girl to the dance floor. I whispered her some dirty things to your ear, brushed with her. At one point, she kissed me. When Cathy saw it, she ran away from there. I rushed her to the court. She sat on a bench and smoked a cigarette, even though she said a year earlier.
We started to argue. She was crying. I survived the bastards and bastards. She slapped me in the face. I, stoned and drunk yelled that I hate her, I deserve someone better. She began to cry even more. I, perhaps even more pissed off by her crying, I said I do not want to be with this hysterical. She looked at me and said:
- Okay, so we will not disturb you in your life.
Then, in narcotic amok, I did not pay attention to the plural, which she used ...
I walked away and got into the car. I left her there alone at night. I thought it would be such a lesson for her, as the dark to come home.
I went home and fell asleep. I woke up after two hours and took a shower, which awakened me. It still was not there. When sober, I realized that I caused. I wanted to apologize to her, I wanted to be with her and cuddle each other. I was worried about her, but I thought that staying with some friends. I went to sleep. And in the morning I was awakened by the doorbell. At the door were two policemen.
I can not even tell you what I felt then. My heart stopped beating, fear mastered my whole body.
Without further ado, they told me everything.
After I drove away, Catherine went to walk home. Two streets away from him came upon three men. They did not want her to pass. She kicked one in the groin, and this pissed threw her to the ground. They began to beat her and then raped. One after another ... They left her dying on the street.
Morning found her a drunk and called the police. They found that the three hours she was dead.
I had to go to the identification of the remains. She lay there, battered, bruised. But still beautiful to me. When I saw her, I felt my heart breaking. I never thought that something could hurt so much. I grabbed her and hug each other for two hours. I whispered to her that I loved her, apologized. Did not want to get out. In the end, they sent a doctor, who gave me something hypnotic.
The next day they caught one of the perpetrators. He was quoted many times. He added other and told the whole event. That's why it's all I know. Sentenced them to life then, without applying for a conditional output.
They did the autopsy. After a week were the results.
Catherine was 3 months pregnant.
After this news stopped there for the world. I quit college, I locked myself in the house and it almost did not go out, and as I have, it's only for a grave. On her grave. I went there and cried. At night I took some of her clothes, I would lie down with him and sighing her scent asleep. It lasted almost half a year.
I hammer, the whole story. Now you know everything about me. Contributed to the death of a loved one. And even two.

I finished, I felt her trembling voice. Something wet ran down my cheek. Did not even notice that I started to cry. Not happened to me for 5 years. I looked at Bella. She sat with tears in his eyes, looking at me sadly.

PWB

I sat still, and the tears ran down my cheeks. I was shocked to the limit. I expected a lot of things, but not this one. It was too horrible, too cruel, as for one man. God, he was then in my age. How much had to suffer, how great remorse had over the years. But it should not be blamed. I had to assure him of it.
- Oh, Edward, it's not your fault. After all, you did not want it to be met.
Edward looked at me with such a pain in the eyes, that as much as my heart sank.
- Not my will, right? If I was not such a bastard, if I did not leave it there, continue to live. The last thing I said to her, is that it does not want to. Those were the words that she took with her. It is possible that when she died she had in mind that very scene. So Bella, it was my fault.

I could not take it anymore. I came closer to him and hugged him. Hands around my waist, very tight and buried his head in my belly. Wept quietly, and I rocked him gently, stroking her hair. I do not know if it lasted. Maybe a few minutes, can hours. I felt the shaking stopped and sighed deeply, and termination.
I pushed it slightly and smiled. He told me the same thing. He got up and grabbed my hand.
- Thank you - he said simply.
- For what?
- For being me wysłuchałaś. Never tell no telling. Even Jasper, though he knows of someone else. I felt as if a stone fell from my heart. It's such a good feeling. And now, after what I heard you help me?
- But Edward, I really do not know how to go back in time. It happened by accident. I did not do it on purpose.
He looked at me incredulously. In the end, his face broke into anger.
- How do you know? You need to fucking know! - Began to jolt me. - I have to go back there, you know? I have to save Cathy! And you have to help me.
- But ... I do not know how.
When he heard this, he stood up abruptly and left the room. I ran after him. He headed for the exit door, grabbed him by the hand.
- Where are you going?
When he looked at me, frightened. In his eyes was hidden madness. He spoke very softly.
- To hell.
Before I knew it came out and got into the elevator. I ran after him.
- Edward! - I screamed.
He paid no attention to me. I could not go in, the door closed and the elevator began.
I ran quickly to the staircase. 20 floors. I ran as fast as I could. When I ran concierge only noticed as he got into the taxi. I could not.
I sank onto the couch, which was next door. I did not know what to do. Edward was in such a state that I was afraid of him. I did not know what he could be capable of. Jasper - I suddenly thought.
He's not in the city, but I have to call him. He may be able to know where Edward is gone. I went quickly to the top, the number that left me and slid quickly to the gatehouse. Still I could not use the phone. I asked the porter to chose the number for me. After a while I heard a familiar voice.
- What?
- Jasper, Bella here. Listen to me carefully. Edward was gone somewhere, very upset. Maybe you know where could I go? Think, please.
- Bella, but what happened?
- He told me the truth about his past. And he asked me to help him to go back in time. When I told him that I can not, desperate and angry ran out, saying that he was going to hell. Jasper, I'm afraid of him.
- My God, Bella. I do not know what to tell you. I have no idea where he might be. Maybe he went to the bar, but in New York there are thousands. You will not find it. Wait, you probably will be back soon. Must simply think. Do not worry, I know him. Please tell me how to go back home.

Jasper said goodbye and went back upstairs. I lay down on the bed, then got up, unable to lie. With nerves walked around the apartment. I turned on the TV, trying to drown out the persistent thoughts. However, it immediately turned off the.
Where could he be? Do not do himself harm? And why are so concerned about it?
I sat on the couch in the end.
Recalled our conversation and his religion. Catherine. She must have been a wonderful woman, if he loved her so much. Now I do not wonder why that was. Introverted, dry and sometimes insensitive. Guilt wyżerało him from the inside. Could I do something to stop the blame game? After all, can not live like that. That it destroyed. It's been so many years, and he still suffers.
The very best to understand it, but I know that my father did not die because of me. On the contrary, he himself brought upon himself such a fate. I suffered, it is obvious. Nightmares are the best proof. However, this was comparable pain, as compared to the pain.
Now I understood why so desperately wants my help. Why did he let me live here. From the beginning it had planned. I do not know why, but I felt sad.
And now I can not help him. Although I'd love to. Or is there some way? As soon as I come back, I will tell him that with his help I'll try. Can succeed.
In the end, tired and upset I fell asleep on the couch. Tormenting me with terrible dreams in which the police he declared to me that Edward was found dead in the gutter.

In the middle of the night wybudziło me pounding on the door, and then scratching the key. I jumped up quickly and turned on the light.
Edward stood in the doorway. The word was not quite reflect what I saw. Rather rocked. He was drunk, knocked at the door. I walked over to him and pulled him into the center. I patted him on the cheek.
- Edward, can you hear me? Wake up, Edward! You know how worried about you?
- But why baby? - Stammered. - With me everything is okay. I feel great.
- Please, go into the shower. You make some coffee. Ocuci you a little.
In the end, he was persuaded, muttering under his nose. I looked at my watch. Was third. And so it does not fall asleep.
I went into the kitchen and made a pot of coffee, also for myself and waited for him.
He left after fifteen minutes and looked better. Gaze was still cloudy.
Upiwszy phloem, drawled sighed and looked at me.
- Why do you care about me? - He asked.
I did not know what to say.
- Because I live here for some time, treats you like a loved one, like Jasper. By the way, I have to call him.
- How to Jasper? - I started to zoom. - But I'm not, in every way - he stood in front of me, I felt his breath on her face.
I swallowed loudly.
- I noticed - I whispered softly.
- And what if I do not want you to treat me like that? - Reached out and put it on my neck. He began to follow her on the neck, very slowly.
- Edward're drunk, you do not know what you're talking about.
My mouth was dry, because the second hand just glided on my side.
My heart was beating like mad.
- Bella, is it important now? - Whispered in my ear, his breath blew my cheek. - I know you want to.
- Edward ...
Holding me by the neck, pulled violently, pressing his lips to my mouth. I wanted to push him away, but after a while, my arms wrapped around his neck. He pressed me to the fridge, and I felt a chill on the back.
He kissed me suddenly and hard, shoving his hands in my hair. My tongue parted lips, then slid it inside. I went to a meeting of his language. We fought, kąsaliśmy and sucked each other. He grabbed me by the hips and lifted up, without interrupting the kiss. I wrapped my legs around him. He moved in front of me suddenly, and I groaned loudly.
That's cool with Edward. He looked at me aghast, then let me go. It was only then I realized what had happened. We watched each other's eyes, not knowing what to say.
In the end, embarrassed and flushed ran into the room, leaving him in the kitchen.
What it really was that ?!